Fangirl

What being a fangirl means?

It means cry night after night knowing you’re only one more.

It means getting angry when your idol cares about everyone else but you.

It means forgetting about you to do something to them.

It means putting their happiness over yours.

It means going through almost everything for them.

It means skipping school or job and putting studies or job by side only to see them or get something about them.

It means saving money –and not always getting enough- to buy something about them.

It means waiting hours, days, weeks, months or years for a new album, book, whatever.

It means giving all of yourself and not always receiving something back.

It means loving them even that they don’t know who you are.

It means knowing that the chances you’ll ever met them are just a few and gets even lower while they became more and more known.

It means listening a lot of “lol, you’re idiot” and “lol, he/she/them doesn’t know you exist” and even “lol, they’re not real” every single day of your life.

It means getting hated on because of a commentary.

It means getting involved in fights pretty often, even disliking it.

It means being jealous of them when people that barely know them talks about them.

It means getting sick really often.

It means getting no sleeping because of excitement.

It means sacrifice.

But even that have all this things going on, being a fangirl is the best thing in the world.

Why?

Because no one will make you smile as easy as your idol will.

Because you won’t find better friends than the other people on the same fan base.

Because their story is an example.

Because they are what makes you go through everything.

Because the few times they show they do care about you are the best moments.

Because everything is worth it when you’re there, standing by their side. Or when you are one step from getting the new book, or watching the new movie.

Because it just is.

And even that the bad things are more and happen more often than the good things –except the friends-, when the good things happens, they are totally worth it, and has more importance than the bad ones.

And only a fangirl will understand this, but it was worth it writing this down because somehow I know I’m getting something from here.

So yes, I don’t regret at all being a fangirl!