I miss you

I couldn’t avoid cry anymore, the feeling taking control over me and spreading that worthless sensation through my hole body.
I couldn’t stand that anymore. My mind is screaming to me. Idiot! You’re an idiot!
And the truth is that actually I am an idiot.
Why do we fall in love? Why do we fall in love with people who we know we’ll not love we back?
I may like the pain. That’s the only explanation to why I love you.
But how couldn’t I?
Everything on you seems to call my name.
From your smile to the way you pronounce the words.
Your laugh, your eyes, your jokes.
The way you care about people.
Every single thing on you just makes me love you more and more every day.
There is not only one thing on you that I don’t love.
Even your bad habits. To me, they just make your qualities even brighter.
And everything was just fine, you know. Then you just came into my life, without asking permission. Not that I could have denied it.
From one day to another I were yours already, and I still am.
But you were not mine, you are not mine, you will never be mine.
Into the arms of somebody else you found your happiness, and no one can understand how it hurts me.
But then I see your smile and the how happy you are. And there’s no way I could ever be mad at the person who is making you smile like this.
It may not be me, but anything is worth just to see your smile.
I still cry in pain. My hearts still beats faster when I see anything about you. And I still remember of you when I see anyone else with the same name.
You’ve become part of who I am, and even if I wanted to get over you I couldn’t.
When the last tear reach the floor a sound interrupt the silence I was in. One message. From you. I miss you. I smile. I miss you too.