P.s. I Love You

People still ask me why I love you so much as I do. I always tried to explain, until I realize they wouldn’t understand. I gave up on explaining this, but now suddenly this need on trying to explain to you came up, and I couldn’t let it go without, at least, trying.

I could give you a thousand reasons, I could talk about your smile, your eyes, your hair, your face, your body.

I could say that is because you are an example I want to follow. Because you’re my idol.

Because you give me hope, or just because I do.

Any of them are lies. Actually, they are all true.

But any of them are the main reason.

I guess it is because without you doesn’t exist “me”. You’re the oxygen I need, the strength to stand up, the happiness behind my smile, the reason of the shine on my eyes, the why my heart beats.

And I’m not over reacting. It is the pure truth that lies inside of me.

I would be dead without you. No, this is not a joke.

The whole world felt on my head at once, nothing was working right, and I couldn’t take it. I couldn’t until you.

You came up and showed me that, yes, I could deal with that. You showed me your life.

Showed me that everyone turned to you and said “give up, this is bullshit” you turned to them and replied with a “fuck you all” before keep on following your dream, your desires.

You made me say “If he could, why can’t I?”

But here goes the most important thing you’ve done:

When everyone was going there and pushing me back from the fall you stood up there behind me saying what I would get and what I would lose on stepping forward to the fall and what I would lose and would get on stepping back.

You never pulled me back. But you were always there when people kept on pushing me back and leaving me.

You never forced me doing anything, you let me choose.

You made me step back on my own.

When the world gave me reasons to give up, you gave me you, the reason to move on.

Why?

Because from that first moment on I wanted to make you proud of me. But for this I first needed to move on.

I guess this is my main reason to love you. You were, you are, and you will ever be here for me. Giving me reasons and choices.

For this, I say: thank you.

I love you, and I will always do.